Today was an amazing day! I love when friends spontaneously ask you to hang out! Emiy and Justice txted me today, while I was in the middle of tanning, and asked if I wanted to hang out with them and maybe go get ice cream. Knowing me, I never try to turn down my friends. Especially when they invite me to do something! I constantly feel like I'm always the one who has to plan things, and I hate it. I end up spending all my money on them and usually get in trouble for something stupid. Anyways, we met up at the high school, and it was a little awkward at first! These two girls just looked so pretty, and I felt like I looked sloppy. I barely had any makeup on, my hair was wet because I just got out of the shower, and I was wearing my usual crappy clothes. Here they are, swaggin' it up with their neon shirts, cute makeup, and golden tans. Oh golly! I felt so self conscience! I would give anything to be that thin and tan, you have no idea.
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| To the girls out there who need a friend. To the girls out there who just need a hug. There is someone out there who is just as crazy and hardcore as you. It just takes a miracle, or Facebook, to find them! :) |
Later on, we walked over to Justice's house, which is surprisingly just a few blocks away from mine! We took lots more pictures, watched funny and scary videos on YouTube, talked a whole bunch, watched Justice as she straightened her hair (ahhahaa), and walked around her backyard. It's so crazy, because they definitely know how to make the best out of any situation! I just feel really good, knowing that I've made some really sweet friends this year. I needed this. I needed to make some friends outside my every day friend group! Ariana and Jasmyn were my besties in middle school, and I'll never forget them. They will remain in my heart for eternity. Alyssa, Tiana, Amy, Abby, Katie, Sam, and Felicia were definitely my rock when I completely switched friend groups in 7th grade. They all made me into the person that I am today. They made me realize my purpose, and why I wanted to be a better person. Over the year, Amanda, Capreece, Miyela, Gabby, Clarisa, Mireya, Haley, Jenna, Emily, Justice, Lexi, Hanna, and so many others lifted me up and made me feel great about the things I was doing. And just recently, Wendy and Shyan really confronted me and influenced me. I totally want to be like these girls when I grow up, fo sho. I need support. I can only motivate myself so much. I like high school because we all get the opportunity to go out of our shells a little bit and meet different people. It sets us up for the real world, that's for sure. It's always nice to have a lot of friends. That is definitely one thing my mom and I can agree on. In high school, she knew everybody and was friends with everybody. I want to be that girl. I want to be that person that is supportive and understanding and friendly towards every single person, regardless.
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| Emily, me, and Justice! |
Speaking of which, I also went out for a two mile walk tonight with my buddy Felicia! She is also a very supportive and motivating person that I am lucky to have in my life. We've definitely had our ups and downs, but in the end, I know for a fact that she is and always will be there for me. We had a really great time tonight, talking about everything from McWilly to school to swimming to friends! It's nice to just get out every once in awhile. She just showed up at my doorstep, asking if I wanted to go walking for a bit! I love spontaneous friends, like I said before! I really want to post something on here that she said to me over txt message after I came home from our walk. I was talking about how I was nervous to go to Water World tomorrow, for lots of reasons, but mostly because people pick on me all the time for the way I look. I told her that it seems like people always judge me before they get to know me. In Felicia's words, she said, "If only they knew what a wonderful girl they are missing out on... I know how it feels to be insecure like you..." It really means a lot to me to know that someone I deeply care about thinks so highly of me. I feel respected, loved, and appreciated. Later on, I told her about how much I look up to her because she is so strong, and sweet to everybody. In response to that, she said, "I try to be nice to everyone because everyone is fighting a battle no one knows about... I try to make their day better if it's possible... even if it's just getting a smile out of them." In some ways, Feesha is a lot like me. I can see it, in her values and her thoughts. I respect you girl. And I respect anyone with this kind of positive attitude.
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