Chocolate Milk

     August 9th, 2012
     I had a really great night. Hands down, I live for moments like these. Sometime around 4pm, former senior Shyan txted me. She asked me if I wanted to go walking or swimming with her tonight. I felt bad, because last night she asked me to go out with her too, but I was busy with family things. It's not that I felt obligated to go walking with her, but I felt like if I didn't go out tonight I would totally regret an amazing opportunity. I met her at her house, which is literally just around the corner, at around 5:30. When she walked out of the house, I kinda felt insecure. I've always thought she was really pretty, so working out with her intimidated me honestly! I have a really bad habit of comparing myself to other girls, so I definitely felt a little down on myself.
     Anyways, we walked over to the track, nearly getting hit by some J.A. in a truck who wouldn't stop for us as we were in the middle of crossing the street. As we walked over there, she explained to me how she usually walks on the track. She starts on the first lane and moves out a lane after every lap. I thought that was pretty cool, considering that each lap gets longer and longer without you even really noticing! All through the walk, we sincerely talked about some pretty cool stuff. We talked about the jerks throughout the school, what Fitness Challenge is all about, relationships, and a whole bunch of other things. It was so cool! Shyan talked to me like we have known each other for years, like she could trust me with anything. I feel like I just truly know her so well now, and I feel like she definitely is getting an idea about me. Around her, there weren't any awkward, silent moments where neither of us knew what to say. She is so outgoing and so understanding. I definitely see a lot of me in her. She is just so relatable, and I know she doesn't judge me. She knows what it is like to be made fun of because of the way you look. She knows what it is like to feel hopeless. She knows what it is like to feel insecure. I know a lot of girls struggle with body image and all the negative things that come with high school, but she is someone really different that I can talk to. She is a couple years older than me, so she has seriously been through it all and seen it all. It's nice to talk to someone who has a different perspective, ya know? We relate so much. She is someone I want to grow up to be like. I'm just in awe right now. It just makes me feel good to know that I'm not alone, and that someone truly cares about me and my well being.
     I'm not going to lie: I'm actually tearing up right now just talking about tonight. I needed her to push me to come out walking with her. I need this, more than I actually realized. It just felt so good to just talk. To just talk about life. To just vent! As time went on, before we knew it, we had walked over three miles! Time seriously does fly when you're having fun.
     This year, I'm going to take the girls-only Fitness Challenge class at my high school. And I'm scared to death. Shyan told me that she knows girls that were legitimately scared to go out for this class! Overall, though, she says it that it definitely is going to change my life. When she was in the class, at the beginning of the semester everyone sets goals. Goals can be as simple as drinking more water to lowering your BMI from 30 to 20! At the end of the semester, all the girls shared their progress. It made her feel really good at the end of the semester when all the girls clapped for her because she made so much progress. I want to have that so bad. Sure, people are proud of me now, but I want another person to sincerely be proud of me for losing weight! I'd like for someone to be like, "Damn, this chick can work out. When she sets her mind to something, she can actually accomplish her goals. This chick is her own hero, and it's good to see that this class was able to changer her life." Yeah, I want that. Anyways, she said that weight lifting was also a big part of this class, which is pretty good news for me. I've always really liked to lift weights, even though it is such a challenge. Anyways, I titled this entry "Chocolate Milk" because it came up in our conversation about Fitness Challenge. She was telling me about how after she would normally workout she would want to go and just scarf down food. She tried to drink milk after a hard workout, to ensure her body has all the necessary nutrients. And the chocolate is just to make it taste yummy! This was my most favorite advice that anyone has ever given me! :)
     This is to the girls, or guys, out there who need a little motivation. Whether you need to get motivated to workout, eat better, or even to just do your homework, always remember that you are not alone. Remember that there is someone out there who is struggling just as much, if not more than you are. Even by just starting this blog, I have met so many amazing people who really needed my words of encouragement to boost there own self esteem. There are definitely people everywhere who are struggling with something. You never know: your next best friend could be just around the corner (literally!). In cases like these, you can never have too many friends. And you can never have too much support! Someone once told me a good friend is like a good bra; supportive, comfortable, and always closet to your heart! It is completely true! So if you or someone you know just needs a little motivation, please don't be afraid to be a friend or find a friend. And if you need a friend, you know where to find me! I could always use a buddy to go walking with. Having someone to exercise with, like I told Shyan, is always a lot more fun than exercising alone. Sometimes, it's hard to motivate yourself. I of all people should know that.
     Thanks for reading this hun. My blog is still as popular as ever, and yal are the reason why I spent a half an hour of my night to tell you about my day! If any of you ever need anything, please remember that I am here for you. And let me know if you want to go WALKING! :)
     In less than a week, we have registration at EHS. I'm looking forward to the new year in some ways, but I'm not ready for my summer of relaxation to be over. This will be a good year though, I'm sure of it!