9:15pm
What a day. This is not exactly the way I hoped homecoming week would start off. I hate being friends with girls. I hate the lieing. I hate the back-stabbing. I hate the jealousy. I hate the name calling. I hate all the two-faced people. Is it really that hard to go up to somebody and confront them about a problem? What benefits come out of talking smack about the people you claim to truly care about?
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| I love everything about this: absolutely everything. |
Personally, there is a huge difference between talking smack and venting. Today at lunch, I vented. I vented to all three of my girls who have the same problem with this other girl as I do. We vented! I told them what was going on, I told them how I felt, and I told them what I was going to do about the whole situation. I didn't talk about irrelevant crap that everyone else wants to constantly gab about. Girls these days want to judge each other for every single little thing; from the shoes the other girls wear to the people they talk to. Honestly, who cares! I'm only worried about me, and the manner of all the other people I care about. All the rest is just jumbo.
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| I feel think about this every single day! |
11:17pm
I am currently watching the movie Eat, Pray, Love. If you want to know how I feel or what my ambition is, just watch this movie. I can relate to about 80% of feelings she is having in the movie, and the other 20% I can't relate to because I'm not in that stage of my life (yet). I really want to just drop everything and travel. Go to a different country, with different people, and live in a different style of life. I'm looking forward to my life. More and more every day, I have to remind myself why I'm still alive. I have to remind myself that someday I will be scuba diving in the Great Barrier Reef. Someday I will be surfing on the beach in California. One day I will be in Mexico playing volleyball in the silky sand. Like I said, I constantly have to remind myself that this will all be worth it. With hard work and dedication, I will make it there.
