Friday, May 18, 2012

Awkward Teen survey

     These seem pretty interesting. You could learn a lot about me from some of these questions. I know some of them are similar to the other random post I had, but oh well.
From Awkward Teen (Facebook page), shared by Alyssa.
1.      Sexual orientation: Female.
2.      What I'm really bad at: Spelling, running continuously, knowing where I am at and where I need to go (when I've driving), public speaking, throwing a frisbee, and singing well.
3.      The one person whose arms I'd like to be in: There's this guy. <3
4.      My best first date: I've never been on a date.
5.      A description of my self-esteem: I'm confident in my future but not about anything physically. Guys don't like me at my school, so I assume no one else ever will.
6.      Who my best friends are: Alyssa, Tiana, Capreece, Jasmyn, Gabby, Amanda, and so many others. I have met a lot of worthy people this year, and lost a lot of indecent ones. I truly care and have a place in my heart for everyone.
7.      My favorite books: Harry Potter series; The Earth, My Butt, and Other Big, Round Things; Island of the Blue Dolphins; Lucas; and so many others. I never get a chance to read anymore though.
8.      Biggest turn offs: I try so hard not to be picky but sometimes it is just not worth it. I can't stand pervs, even though I am one at times. Ironic, huh? But I only act that way because people find it fricken hilarious. I love when people smile. I also can't stand ignorance and laziness.
9.      A description of my best friend: She's pretty and hilarious and confident and smart and outgoing and simply amazing. I have so many best friends, and they all fit this description perfectly!
10.  My favorite animal: Haha ask Alyssa!
11.  Someone I miss: I miss my best friend who lives in Fort Collins now the most out of everybody in the world. I feel terrible because I never plan anything or hang out with her ever. I guess I’m just nervous to see her again. I feel like we won’t be as close anymore and it’s really hard to except that. I also miss my grandma because I wish I could be with her everyday, my cousins and all my siblings on my dad's side of the family.
12.  The reason behind my last break up: Distance (physically and mentally) and we had trust issues.
13.  What I did yesterday: Yesterday I went to school. Only 3 more (school) days left!
14.  What my greatest achievements are: Being nominated for People to People Student Ambassador Program by President Bush, winning Honor Role, Red Pride, Athletics, and Club awards in junior high, winning runner-up for the photography contest by Mrs. Kirby, and establishing this blog, where I have the opportunity to show everyone who I am and be myself 100% of the time.
15.  A description of the person I dislike the most: She has her head in the clouds, she is ignorant, unintelligent, “popular” for all the wrong reasons, and hateful towards anyone who is different.
16.  My favorite songs right now: Last Kiss by Taylor Swift, How to Save a Life by The Fray, Fly Over States by Jason Aldean, Drunk on You by Luke Bryan, Dancin’ Away with my Heart by Lady Antebellum, I Hope You Dance by Lee Ann Womack, Tonight by , Colder Weather by Zach Brown Band, One Thing by One Direction,
17.  How my first kiss went down: I’ve never kissed a guy before.
18.  What I find attractive in the opposite sex: Physically, I like a guy that is built, tan, glistening eyes, a vibrant smile, and blond wavy hair. Mentally, I like a guy that has goals, knows what he does and does not like, and has a stable education. Emotionally, I like when a guy and I can talk about anything under the sun, when he tells me exactly how he feels and doesn’t hold anything back, and a guy who genuinely cares about many people.
19.  All of the pets I've ever had: I’ve had four dogs at my step dad’s house, two bunnies at my dad’s house, and at my house I have a cat and fish. I used to have hermit crabs too.
20.  Favorite flavor of ice cream: Mint chocolate chip or double chocolate peanut butter brownie cookie dough!
21.  The one place I want to be right now: I wish I was on the coast of somewhere beautiful. Nothing is more peaceful then being on the beach with someone you love.
22.  The meanest thing anyone has ever said to me: It’s hard to narrow them all down. I’ve had a lot of terrible crap said to me. I don’t really want to talk about it all honestly.
23.  Where I have lived before: Before kindergarten we lived in three different houses in Loveland before we moved to Eaton.
24.  I'll love you if...: You hug me tight and don’t let me go, tell me I’m beautiful when I feel my worse, and bring me flowers for absolutely no reason.
25.  What my future plans are: Attend a top college, move out of Eaton, move to somewhere by the ocean, publish my artwork (poetry, photography, and drawings), become a teacher/coach/photographer/volunteer, start a family, and live to my absolute highest potential.
26.  An internal conflict I have with myself: I have nothing but internal conflicts. I’m just an overall struggle.
27.  What I am doing tomorrow: Going to my cousins’ birthday parties and studying for finals.
28.  What I want to be when I get older: English teacher, volleyball coach, travel photographer, a volunteer at numerous places, a published author, a motivational speaker at junior highs and high schools,
29.  Most embarrassing moment: I have so many to choose from. I seem to embarrass myself accidently all the time.
30.  Two of my insecurities: My weight and my skin.
31.  What I would do if I won the lottery: Save it all up in a retirement fund and travel the world.
32.  A description of the boy I like: Haha which one?
33.  What I love most about myself: Currently, I love my outlook on life. I'm really trying to find the good in people and to live my life the way I want to. I really like how inherently conscious I am. I have a lot of the same values and other beliefs as my grandparents.
34.  My biggest pet peeves: When people spell my name wrong, generally the way people act around the person that they like,
35.  What bands I've seen live: The only concert I've ever been to was The Jonas Brothers with Jasmyn!
36.  How many kids I want in the future: 2+, adopted or my own.
37.  My idea of a perfect date: I'm a pretty simple girl. As long as we are spending time together, laughing and enjoying each others company, it will be perfect in every way.
38.  What I'm really good at: I hate to sound cocky, but I actually am starting to like myself. I'm trying to be true to my feelings and to my thoughts. I feel like I'm a very strong, creative person because I write poetry, I draw, and I photograph. I'm also good in school when I actually apply myself and turn my work in on time. Like I said, when I actually do my best, I'm a very organized and thoughtful girl. I don't like to talk about my strengths and weaknesses, you tell me what I am good at?
39.  Most traumatic experience: To be continued...
40.  Where I would like to live: As many of you may know, I would love to live anywhere by the ocean. I wish I could live off of the Gulf but I wouldn't want to live in that part of Mexico. I want to move to Australia, California, or Florida if I'm lucky. I need to be by the ocean, and that is the main reason why I hate living in Colorado.
41.  The nicest thing anyone's ever said to me: Lately especially, I've met a lot of very caring people. A couple of girls have really made me feel wanted and loved. I've mentioned a few of the many in my previous posts.
42.  Do I like where I am right now?: Physically, no. Mentally, I'm getting there. Emotionally, it's generally under control.
43.  What I can hear right now: I can hear annoying people all around me. Some of the people I have to have classes with really irk me!
44.  My relationship with my siblings: I currently have six half brothers and sisters. I'm closest to Ronnie because he is only a year younger than me. My other brother Brady that lives with my mom is too young to completely like or dislike me, but we are getting along generally well. Avery, Tanner, Abby, and Coltin all live with my dad in Loveland. I'm not very close with them because I don't see them very often, I'm just not close with my dad either, and we all have a lot of different opinions. I guess you could say they are more traditional, while my mom and I are more modern. I don't like to talk about it at all.
45.  My biggest fears: Failure, embarrassment, and pity.
46.  Something I've wished for repeatedly: I've always wished I was skinny, ever since I was in kindergarten! How sad is it that a little kid, at that young of an age, worried about what others thought? I find it absolutely tragic because I don't think I've ever lived a normal life. I've never had that kind of self confidence. I cry every time I'm around my little sister Avery because she is the same age I was at that age and she already considers herself "ugly and fat".
47.  My relationship with my parents:
48.  What makes me feel the best about myself:
49.  Something I should have said a long time ago:
50.  What my last text message says:
51.  What I hate most about myself:
52.  Biggest turn ons:
53.  What upsets me the most:
54.  What I hate the most about school:

Definition of Beautiful

May 16th 
 Thought of the Day: Friends "May 16th; Friendship is a magical vehicle in which two distinct souls journey together to different destinations."
     When I read this quote, I immediately thought of my best friend Jasmyn. We have been best friends since the first week of kindergarten. I could just go on and on about this amazing girl... I'll dedicate an entire post to her eventually.
     So this girl AV appeared in my news feed today on Facebook. She was getting a lot of comments and picture likes so I thought I would check out what all the fuss was about. As I looked at her pictures, I noticed a repeating pattern. In all of them, she had her lips puckered, her butt sticking out, her boobs halfway showing, and barely any clothes on her body. Now don't get me wrong: everybody likes to feel loved and everybody likes to get attention. But if you have to try that hard just to get a few comments and likes from complete strangers, what kind of person are you really? It really bugs me what most guys are saying on her pictures too. They are all saying how flawless she is, how much they want to be with her, and that she is the definition of beauty. I don't know what this world has become. Wearing every single makeup product in your bathroom on your face, spending hours on your hair daily, getting cosmetic surgery just to change what you weren't born with, and wearing the least amount of clothes possible is not even the closest definition to beautiful.
     According to a young girl's definition on Urban Dictionary: "Anyone can be beautiful. It's not about the clothing, the hair, the make-up. It's about the way your smile radiates warmth, or dancing when you're excited, no matter who's watching. How to be beautiful? There are no guidelines, and anyone who tells you otherwise is telling you how to be pretty. Pretty and beautiful are not synonyms. Pretty is an adjective, whereas beautiful is so much more. Beautiful is a sunset, or the rain, or being in love. Beautiful is singing in the shower, running at night, and laughing out-loud. Beautiful is the way a flower smells, or the feel of their skin. I'm sorry if you disagree, but this is the best I could describe such a, well, beautiful word. An appropriate response:  'You're beautiful.' 'I love you too.'"
     It hurts me so badly that these girls are the type that attract so many guys. Nobody knows what they look like or how they act under all that makeup and gross attraction. Nobody knows what those girls want to be when they grow older or what their other goals in life are. Most guys these days only appear to care about a girl's bra size and how sexy she can talk. I hate to say it, but I honestly believe that's the truth. It's completely unfortunate because ten years from now, none of that crap will matter.
     To be continued...